Some days, when I'm feeling ok, this whole transplant process feels like a dream & doesn't seem real. I have to remind myself that my life could change with 1 phone call. But, in reality, that is true for all of us...
On other days, when Meg is acting up & is painful or taking up more than her fair share of space, I am totally ready to proceed with surgery. My energy level seems to be decreasing. I have really limited my quantity of food after lunch. If I eat too much food late in the day, then I'm too uncomfortable to sleep. A dear friend gave me a book of 100 smoothies. So, I'm learning to drink my nutrients with less bulk. Seems to be helping--yay!!! Carly is always willing to be my taste tester so it's fun to share them with her!
I have a friend who is in the final weeks of her 1st pregnancy & is very anxious to deliver because of being uncomfortable. When I look at her, and know what lies ahead, I remember how much easier my pregnancy was compared to the fatigue & journey through the 1st few months of parenthood.
So, I am encouraged by watching pregnant women. (There's lots of them at our church, so they're easy to find.) When my fatigue gets me discouraged, I tell myself to push forward because this is the easy part. The process during and after surgery will have plenty of "opportunities for adjustment". Doesn't that sound positive? To be honest, there are parts of it that I'm not looking forward to, but just like with childbirth, there are some things that we need to go through to get a better end result.
I receive a daily email scripture. I read each one but some of them "sink in" more than others. This one came this week & encouraged me: I hope it encourages you with whatever your life includes right now:
"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." ~1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Love to all,
~~Meg & Belinda
